I am not sharing any nail art or product reviews or beauty stuff today. I feel like sharing some of my random feelings today. I am not sure if we all feel the same way or if you will relate to it. :(. I agree the post is longer than usual but I would request you to go through it. It not tells my story but also share few realities of life that I learnt. At the end you would have a feel good factor and probably answers to a few questions.
Actually, I started this article to write a tutorial for another nail art of mine. But as I started penning down a few words saying how much I have been wanting to do this nail art for so long, these thoughts started rushing in like breeze and I could not control the urge to vent them out to you.
Do you sometimes stumble upon your past randomly but end up getting engrossed in some deep thoughts, trying to figure out how you reached here?? Do you feel wonder like had that not happened I would not have been here?? I thought it was the worst of my life but good that it happened or I would have never got this?? Do you think on these lines?? Do you sometimes feel unlucky at one point in present but the same thing makes you feel lucky when you look back at it?
Well this happens to me at least!!!!
Sometimes, when I flip back the pages of my blog, I feel I did quite a few nail arts, assortment of passed and failed experiments. I did manage work, home, blog and some fair amount of success. It kinna makes me proud, whatever they are, they are mine, my blood and sweat. Then, I look back and remember how I was always obsessed with nails paints and long nails but never thought of nail art per say.
When I was 23 while doing my MBA, I did few nail arts but then they took hours since I used all wrong lengthy techniques to get a right look :P. Do you want to know what did I use for my first nail art?? I used an empty pen refill tip to dip into nail paints and make patterns. I used white for base coat and drew lots of intricate leaves and flowers on each nail. Phhewww!!! all of them with just the tiny head of a finished pen refill. I never knew about blogs then or nail art tutorials which I could browse through to make my life easy. Today I look back and pity myself for wanting to get that nail art so desperately, that I took 3-4 hours joining those dots and making leaves and flowers, borrowing few nail paints from friends and getting a sprained neck the next day for bending down for so long at a stretch!! I missed my dinner that day, since I was in hostel and I could not leave my nail art half way so let the dinner bell pass by. I wish I had a picture to show the nail art.
I went to my home (Mumbai) the next day and my parents appreciated it but also called me crazy. I do not remember much what happened after that or any nail art I attempted after that, I don’t know.I definitely kept on buying nail paints with my pocket money thinking of various nail art designs I would make from them. I vaguely remember trying a couple of designs after that which failed miserably. And I think I got busy with placements and exams and what not, so the failed experiments took a back seat. I got a campus placement, fared well in my exams , shifted back to home, joined my job, got engaged, got married and time passed by and I got very busy.
After 5 years ( around September 2012), suddenly work pressure decreased due to an anticipated project getting delayed. I like to keep myself busy so this made me upset. I had very low work pressure and it felt weird.I started hating my job even more. One fine day at work while browsing through some review of a cosmetic I wanted to purchase,I got introduced to blogs. Wow!! nice colorful world. And then after a few days or a month I tripped over a nail art blog 😀 😀 😀 😀 ( I still thank heavens for that lucky moment). And it suddenly got me wondering, that I LOVED nail art so so so much but what happened to it? Why did I forget about it, how did I not think about for so long? It was like something happened and a strong feeling or passion that was buried in my heart so long was now awake and active. I started reading heaps of nail art blogs, after a few 100 reads I ordered a few nail art stuffs and did some nail art.
Office was lull and dull, I was studying for some pending insurance certifications and I would do some nail art in my break time (when I was not at office, house chores were sorted and I was not studying). I started enjoying it, it was thrilling and it started motivating me to study so that I could do nail art in break. I still never thought that I would or could have a blog of my own. My memory is again vague here on how and what was the strong moment when I decided to start blogging. I believe it was some strong dormant feeling which needed a push to wake up and change my life. I then set up my blog in January 2013, I struggled with WordPress in February and in March I went to Thailand for a vacation (where I bought lots of nail paints and nail art stuffs). After all the roller coaster ride, mid march when I was back, I actually started writing and blogging. I still remember me mailing my friends on my first like, first follower and first comment (it came very late)!!!!!!
Things were very exciting since then, I never had a dull day in my life thereon. NEVER!!!
You must be thinking what happened to the anticipated project and my work and my exam and my blog??? Well, about the ‘anticipated’ project; it came but very late-after 7 months of lull. By then I read a lot, gave interview for my dream job and got selected (I really put out my blood and sweat for this one). I never really loved the job I was doing here (it was just OK, I got a promotion, good salary but didn’t get the feel!) but could never find the huge amount of time to prepare and move out.So I am thankful to the much hated and dreaded lull that it gave me time to prepare for this, focus on this and finally achieve this. By the end of this month I will be leaving my current employer and joining another company with a profile I have been wanting to have for ages.
About the exam, I cleared the ‘Fellowship‘ exam which is the highest insurance certification in India (very few people in India have this certification since it is very difficult and there is an array of exams to clear this) .I had been panting to use the ‘FIII’ (Fellow from Insurance Institute of India) with my signature and business card for so long. So I am grateful to the lull which gave me nightmares to eventually help me achieve my dreams.
And finally, about the blog; its 4 months or less since I actually started blogging and I have 216 Followers, 22000 Views, 2 Versatile Blogger Award,1 Sunshine Blogger Award, 2 Wins at the Nail Art competitions I participated and lots of lovely readers who do not shy away from liking and commenting on my smudged and hazy photographed nail art also. These may not very great achievement to few, but I think I did fairly well. So a big hug to the ‘lull’ which paused my fast paced life, helped me retrospect and realize my hidden and unfulfilled dream, gain up the energy to follow them and achieve them.
Had it not been for the ‘LULL’ I would not have been sitting here and talking to you guys and I would not have had my new assignment knocking at the Door. So it is correctly said ‘Everything happens for a reason’.
So here is my story. Did you enjoy it? Could you relate to it?I am dead sure you have felt something similar to this, please share your story here. And let me know what do you feel for mine.